30 for 30: Taraweeh Reflections Day 21
Day 21 of Ramadan. Today, I'm tapping into the link between abstaining from desires and gaining control over our behavior. In a world overflowing with distractions and instant gratification, I'm learning that self-control is the secret weapon for self-mastery. It's a constant struggle – resisting the pull of socials and filtering out negativity when you use it is so hard. How many "don't show me posts like this" do I have to click on IG to get my feed to be fitnah freed? It feels like Shaytan is working overtime, making even the simplest acts of restraint feel like victories.
These past twenty-one days of fasting have been a physical challenge, undoubtedly. But the lack of food and drink has opened the door to a deeper spiritual practice: the conscious choice to deny me immediate desires in pursuit of something greater. I feel like fasting is beyond the physical realm. I've reclaimed control over my actions and reactions by consciously abstaining from negative thoughts, harmful habits, and the constant pull of distractions. I have become less impulsive, more mindful, and increasingly aware of my choices. I'm learning that my desires are not adversaries but signposts guiding me toward the depths of my soul where my true potential lies dormant.
With a mind unclouded by constant desires, I can finally turn inward and focus on the areas in my life that need the most attention and development. For me, that means strengthening my patience, deepening my perseverance, and nurturing my gratitude. This Ramadan, the act of abstaining has allowed me to see myself with greater clarity, paving the way for intentional growth and self-improvement.
I'm learning that self-denial/control is not about deprivation but about empowerment. It's about rising above these fading desires and reclaiming control over my behavior. It's about creating space for reflection and growth, ultimately leading me closer to the best version of myself.
May this Ramadan continue to be a time of self-discovery. May we utilize the power of abstaining from gaining control over our behaviors, gaining clarity, and identifying the areas within ourselves that need the most nurturing. Ameen.
