30 for 30: Taraweeh Reflections Day 10
The tenth day of Ramadan draws to a close; I'm back at it again with some reflections. The initial excitement of Ramadan has settled in now; fasting, prayer, and reflection feel natural. Check me out; I'm on day ten. I had to pat myself on the back because I've struggled with consistent writing.
Today, tho, I fell to the oldest thief, Mr. Comparisons. He set a subtle trap for me today, and I fell for it. I saw this brother at the masjid today; since Ramadan started, he's been in the masjid early and leaves late. He always prays the extra sunnah salah and even adds more. As I sat there and watched him pray his nafilah, I started comparing myself to him. I was like, dang, you don't be on your nafilah game like that; he's probably winning at Ramadan while you're over here talking about "30 for 30.” And just like that, I felt so sad and down; it took me a minute to snap out of it, but I did when I recognized it as one of Mr. Comparison's tricks. He's good at what he does. He almost stole the joy from my spiritual journey this Ramadan.
It's easy to look around and feel that others are navigating this holy month with more devotion, their acts of worship seemingly more profound, or their faith unwavering in the face of trials. I had to remind myself that my journey is uniquely mine, a path laid out by the Most Merciful, tailored to my tests and triumphs. Comparing my spiritual walk to the brother from the masjid is like comparing the snowy mountains to NYC's hot summers; both are beautiful, both are necessary, and Allah creates both in perfect wisdom. Each soul's journey is a masterpiece in progress, a unique blend of shadows and light crafted with divine intricacy.
The Prophet Muhammad (peace be upon him) said, “Look at those who are below you, and do not look at those who are above you, for that is more likely to hold you back from belittling the blessings that Allah has bestowed upon you." This hadith reminds us that true happiness lies in appreciating our blessings and recognizing that everyone is on their unique journey.
I carry with me this newfound perspective, a commitment to focus on my spiritual growth, to celebrate the small victories, and to find contentment in the knowledge that my journey is exactly as it should be. I hope you embrace your own paths with courage and faith, knowing that each step we take, no matter how faltering, is a step towards the Divine.
Mr. Comparisons and I are old friends; I left him hanging long ago. He's jealous and always trying to get back into my life. I'm on my p's and q's tho, he won't get me. I broke free from the shackles of comparison and hope to unlock a deeper sense of contentment, gratitude, and connection with Allah. May this Ramadan be a time for all of us to embrace our uniqueness, appreciate our blessings, and find joy in our journeys. May we strive to be better versions of ourselves rather than seeking validation through comparisons with others. Ameen.
